So it's Happening...

So my ex gets married in 4 days to my former neighbor. It will be a couple weeks shy of one year since the divorce was finalized.

Time flies, but it still feels strange and surreal to me that this whole thing happened.  Still thinking how unnecessary the whole thing was.  I do admit, however, that it couldn't go on the way it was and that I'm better off now than I ever was.  My life continues to improve incrementally.  No magic wands, just small steady improvements over time as if a loving Heavenly Father is watching out for me.

I love being with my kids for church on Sundays.  I fought for that.   It's special to me.  The pain comes when I'm driving them back to another town on Sunday night.  I hug each one of them goodbye when I drop them off.  It hurts for me to let them go.  This part is relatively new and it still aches in my bones and it takes awhile to shake off the heaviness in my heart.  I'm usually ok by Monday morning but still...

Good friends and family help soothe my tender feelings.  Thank goodness I have them in spades.

Some interesting things have transpired in my new life since divorce.

1.  I was made a High Priest.
2.  I got a new job and a raise.
3.  I was called to serve in the Stake High Council.
4.  I've made wonderful friends.
5.  I've been able to talk and interact with good single women who have gone through similar trials.  (This gives me hope and comfort to know that maybe I'll be able to find the kind of partner I want and need someday.)

There are still a lot of ups and downs for me but I feel an overarching feeling that the Lord is in charge and that he cares about me.

I'm trying to let him guide me and am trying to take advantage of the experiences he gives me now. I know I can't skip any steps, but that this path is likely to bring me the most joy now, and in the future.

I believe in Him and know that as each one of us examines his or her own life, we will be able to see how the Lord is guiding us along.  There's no worry that we won't make it if we follow those promptings and that guidance that comes from Heaven.  Our path will be sure.  I just know it.

So in conclusion I'll say this:

It will all work out brothers and sisters.  It will all work out.

Onward and upward!